#thats not fair liz

[girlwiththegreenhat]

you ever hate on something you've never played/watched/read for what are still moderately good reasons given the circumstances, and then decide to go and play/watch/read the thing just to be fair. just to give it a chance

and then you were not only Right but its Worse Somehow and you're actually just more pissed off now

[thegeminisage]

Do you have recs for other fics where john comes back into dean's life and there is stuff with him and cas? Besides broken road of course

i am so sorry bestie - unless there's something in my public ao3 bookmarks i forgot about, i do not :( half the reason i wrote broken road was bc i was so frustrated with the john fics i was finding and not really coming across anything that satisfied me. so i wrote broken road so i'd have something to read, lol <3 but good luck!

[cartooemcanhis]

spoilers for htf x dumb ways to die

THEY KILLED MY BOY HANDY FIRST THIS ISNT FAIR BRO!!!

also hi very obviously Liz Stewart voicing that pink bean

I didnt like love the ep but i think its good!! Wish there were more treefriends and slightly less beans but thats just cause I dont really care about the dumb ways to die characters

[allaboutmagic]

✨Good day and Happy WBW!✨

So, for any WIP or story of yours, what’s the government like? What kind of government is it? A theocracy? Or a monarchy? A democratic republic? Are they corrupt? Or no? Tell me about it!

have a lovely day!✨

(And I do hope this is the right blog? Lemme know if not!)

Hiiii! Thanks for this question <3

okay so, basically Hatolea is ruled by a royal family (the Darringtons) and is therefore a monarchy. But thats not the whole story. I recently started explaining about Tehokans (ppl with magic powers) and Voimatos (ppl w/o). Because the Darringtons are mostly Tahokens the Voimatos do not feel represented enough (and they really aren't)

One city, Belena, is in an open rebellion against the crown and has been for years. It is located on an island and only Voimatos are allowed to live there. (Maybe I'll explain later how they managed to ban the Tehokans, cause ofc there is also a story to that!) Anyways, they're still not really seen as a threat (because what could Voimatos really do against our precious and powerful magical abilities) (spoilers: a lot actually) (but many Tehokans are ignorant and also a teeny tiny bit arrogant). Belena is run by "The Council of Thirteen", which consists of elected representatives. However the elections are not really free and fair, which is a part of my story that I'll still need to work a little more on.

What unites both governments is the fact that they both believe they are doing things for the good of the majority. Malik Darrington, the reigning king, wants to protect his people and keep the peace. The Council of Thirteen should be interested in equality and I'm sure there are people who aspire exactly that. Others, however, want to finally have power over the Tehokans to make them pay for the past centuries. It seems clear that war is unavoidable. Well that is until "The Red Alliance", a radical group of Voimatos, finds out about the existence of Liz. Liz, who should be a Tahoken but somehow isn't. What they don't know yet is that Liz is also the one, who should be on the throne, but isn't.

So yeah, there's a lot going on. I hope you could understand everything <3

[hearts401]

could you tell us more about swap! mike if you have the time he’s so important to me….

(also your art is so good. and your fics. like you are so so talented and you’re super funny as well and I love ur blog sm have an incredible day 🫶🫶🫶🫶)

WAAAH IM GLAD U LIKE HIM he's so special to me too

Im thinking of things i might not have shared already BUT ill also just drop a rundown of what happened bc i think some stuff has changed since last time i told it

basically mikes 10th or 11th (havent decided yet) birthday rolls around and hes messing w his friends and they lock him out as a joke. mildly annoyed, he just goes around to the back but finds he doesnt have his father's key with him like he's supposed to. luckily, william is there! and. stabs him. charlie dies shortly after in the bite, the missing kids (including mikes old friend sammy who was NOT involved in the party incident) all die (cassidys not in this au btw lol sammys toysnhk) and then sees evan get killed by circus baby. this whole time he's dragging them back because he wants revenge on his father, however sammy doesnt need dragging. he accepts michaels offer immediately. In fnaf 2, the security guard is the chica bully (who i have yet to name and fun fact she's transgenderrr mtf) and mike sends mangle after her while distracting her. she gets bite of 87ed. Michael chases henry into the fredbear suit and kills him, applauds evan for killing elizabeth before ditching him when he explains that he brought her back via remnant, and targets her and henry for the entirety of fnaf 6 before being caught in lefty and stopped for one night despairing over being trapped and shocked. buuut he returns the next night with a VENGANCE. he also joins sammy torturing will down in ucn.

NOW FOR THE NEW STUFF

He's way younger than teen mike but he does still have a habit of lashing out especially at evan. however when he sees everyone die that lessens a bit, and he often worries about evan stuck down there in the bunker, since hes the only spirit michael cant keep an eye on. they are, after all, under his protection. thats not to say charlie doesnt take that role, and she takes it much more seriously. they are TRULY under her protection and she is a lot kinder than michael is. but ill ramble about her some other time lol. when evan scoops liz and is kicked out of ennard, michael is ecstatic! his brother is back and they dont have to worry about elizabeth getting involved anymore! until evan reluctantly explains that liz is not dead for good. michael is upset with him, and evan defends her, saying its not fair that she has to suffer for what their father did and INSISTS that she wasnt actually working for william. but mike doesnt buy it and waves evan off. he cares about him, sure, but hes not exceptionally worried, and now evans pissed him off.

later, when henry goes to the saferoom and michael kills him, charlie and sammy are incredibly upset. they both defend henry, and michael ends up ditching them and turning the missing kids against them. because sammy chose this life to get rid of will, and charlie wasnt even murdered, so CLEARLY they have no say in this. (mikes just a bully and also second oldest only to sammy)

but then the missing kids move on and michael stays behind. because hes not done yet! hisdads still here! and everyone left him and hes soooo pissed because all thats left is charlie, sammy, evan, and henry. (oh and molten freddy) and hes just!!! ARGH!!! ITS NOT FAIR!!!! and uaufhuh

[imaginespazzi]

Hi hi hi!

Reporting live and procrastinating responsibilities :). So heres my rundown, pretty much matchy matchy w yours, naturally: Generally the video vibes almost 💯 fit with the allegations 🙃. Please bear w the rambling thoughts in no particular order. Im not sure how one could possibly cohesively recap ALL THAT lol. Ok it blows my mind how much they personally had to catch up on w one another! God damn babes, you havent talked much if at all in nearly a month. Again it screams that there was more of a relationship (ending poorly).. Even friends moving apart prob wouldve had more contact over that time. Sometimes I wonder how they dont realize what they reveal by what they leave ~unsaid/not explained! Though G’s “really bad breakup” comment felt weighted given their situation. To me much of the injury discussion came across as carry over from the In The Mirror. With G making a point to say nice things (good memories of playing together;tearing up when Liz got hurt; not being wholly herself as a player w/out Kitley;the frustration at team reaction after the game following the injury; belief that Liz will recover/be drafted etc.). And G’s words still feel to me like a way of her dealing with some guilt which she cant quite yet express or process. Especially considering her adding stuff about being w the Kitley fam lately and helping move Liz’s stuff ha. If a person ever questioned something going down between L&G, I’ll say alarm bells went off when L described her night following the injury and staying over w Cayla. In such a low moment, poor girlie really couldnt manage being at her own place thats shared w one of her closest pals. Ooof. However, on the whole, they sounded more comfortable at times than I expected. In fact the convo sometimes got surprisingly open and loose - gals dont tell me that we had a bit of liquid courage before recording. ;) And it did stand out to me that L asked the “fans” on multiple occasions to just be decent and grateful for what they had + be understanding of decision making under the situation, but stopped short of telling people to leave G alone (which, given everything we’re led to believe, fair play hun). My big takeaway was that they seem to be taking this time of big adjustment as also a new beginning to possibly recover a friendship. Clearly theres still issues to work thru, but perhaps theyve reached a more settled/amicable place? Or at least were just able to deal w each other long enough to provide us all w a semi closure pod 😐. But heres hoping for more future content, as they hinted at! Oh and as someone who works w/in college athletics, I was very sympathetic to their comments throughout re change. Its a crazy industry, stuff happens in the blink of an eye and you do just have to deal with that ish. The harsh reality of the current state of things is that one rarely gets a neat, happy closure.

Happy Sunday to you bestie, hope its fantastic! -☕️

Reporting live and procrastinating is so real, like me asf fr fr.

THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING. Like they seemed so out of the loop when it came to each other's life and that's just so weird to me? I mean I get it could just be regular friends drifting but that wasn't the ~vibe~ at all to me and maybe again it's the allegations bias but it was just very much giving exes.

Hardcore agree with the Georgia stuff because I thought some of what she was saying felt a bit like an overcompensation, an apology of sorts to make up in a way for anything else that *might* have happened. Honestly Georgia being so nice, no shade, doesn't really fit the dynamic from before where sometimes Georgia's snark was just mean to me really.

Every new bit of info/content, I just continue to feel terrible for Liz. And I think her staying at Cayla's really gave away the depth of how much has happened between her and Georgia. And again yeah it could be a friend breakup but it just feel a little too serious for that.

Obviously I don't know a timeline, if there even is one, but this podcast gave me the vibes that if they were together, it's actually been a decent while since they broke up and are now in a place where they can co-exist in an amicable manner. I don't know if we'll ever get another podcast or if they'll actually be able to be in a genuine friendship again but I think they're in a good enough place and I do love that for them.

[jabeur]

🐹 IDKKK i cant see you as intimidating at all but maybe thats bc our first interaction was already some form of insane oversharing (affectionate) <33

I'M SO SORRY LIZ i literally didn't see this it's been like ages probably 😭😭

fair tbh, i think i was pretty intimated by you at first but just bc i like. rly wanted to be your friend and you seemed so cool fjfvjdvh but then like it quickly turned into not intimated at all bc yeah. like you said we skipped. all the steps and went straight to so like it all started when i was 4- djfjdbjfvn wouldn't have it any other way 🩵

[p-taryn-dactyl]

Kathryn or Lizzie or Katie McGrath???

Ook starting off strong

Imma answer all of these hehehe

Kathryn Hahn

i have to be honest, i haven’t been part of the hahnverse for a long time

but, i haven’t found anything for me to dislike her for? hold on let me scroll through her anti tag (if she has one) for “information”

ok im back there was nothing

Ok who am i kidding with this neutral approach: i love her. Everything ive seen with her gives off just such a kind individual and loving, down to earth

If i wasn’t already devoted to another person who doesn’t know I exist, she would be the love of my life

Elizabeth Olsen

just because her answer is longer does not mean i like liz better than kathryn

backstory time: im a huge X-men fan. I didn’t grow up on the comics but on the animated shows and when i watched age of ultron for the first time i was so freaking excited when my dad told me scarlet witch was in it

but when i watched it…i was confused

wanda is Jewish why would she be working willingly with hydra, a organization with ancient purist beliefs who sided with the nazis? why is her character so different? why did they add the whole ‘ah i hate tony’ thing to the movies again (to be fair, im also just a giant tony stark fan and it hurt to see one of my favorite mutants against my comfort character)

so my dislike of Wanda grew from the weird way the MCU executed her character but i gave Lizzie the benefit of a doubt bc why not

then i heard interviews with her saying the g-slur, her dismissing Wanda’s Jewish Romani heritage, making fun of Serbia and it hurt ya know?

look, im very bi and Lizzie is very hot so im not immune to the whole Wanda mommy thing but idk? Ig i would say im neutral, solidly neutral, about Liz

i bet she’s a great person to be around, a great friend and ik her life hasn’t been the best with the press hounding her family all the time and she is pretty funny and has good chemistry with the rest of the cast but there’s something off?

Katie McGrath

Once more: i am gay af and Katie…whew, she’s one of the reasons why

I haven’t dug that deep into her bc ive never felt a reason to but i really like her

i am not a fan of the rest of the supergirl cast at the moment but she just seems like such a nice person and I honestly would watch anything with Katie in it

i was a huge Merlin fan before i watched supergirl and lemme tell you, katie is a great actress who has this vibe around her thats just…amazing

all the hate i see around here (once again, i didn’t dive too deep) about her is mostly from people who don’t ship supercorp which i find annoying bc even if people ship something, that doesn’t mean you have to come for the people playing the characters (unless they genuinely deserve it, which i don’t think katie does)

I hope this was ok?? This isn’t a hate or anti post for anyone, all three of these people are amazing actors and are probably really nice but since ive never met them and prolly never will, these will forever remain my opinion and not fact

[tedtnx]

Ted chuckled, momentarily picturing how he could just transfigure the guy into a hamster or a tea cosy. "Nah of course not, but he is a knob! I s'ppose ah could change him into a door knob..." He trailed off and laughed once more. "Well, not according to that tosser's tweets." He glanced at his phone again, reading a recent tweet which was implying Ted needn't bother showing up. "Tosser" Tucking his phone away once more, Ted shook his head. "Dromeda, i've literally just spent a full week with her so she could keep away from my dad. Plus she'd be fair heart broken if ah showed up without you." Liz was a fantastic mother to ted, and she'd always been there for him as both a mother and father, but she had always wanted a daughter. When his matneral cousin was born, ted's mum couldn't get enough of her, buying little pink dresses and dolls. Ted presumed this was why she enjoyed Dromeda's company so much. They were, in some way like eachothers missing part he guessed. "Ah mean, unless you don't wanna come. Cause thats fine too."

Andromeda couldn't help but laugh. She clasped her hand over her mouth to stifle the sound. They weren't supposed to be welcoming attention to themselves. She had known him for years and his accent and terminology still pushed her into a fit of giggles. "A knob? Oh Teddy... you didn't transfigure him, did you? I think that would qualify as cheating!" she gasped at his admission. "Yes, hexing would also be cheating. You couldn't do that. You're too good to resort to magical means." She had seen quite a few of his fights, always fascinated not necessarily by the fight itself but more so the crowd that seemed excited to see such physical violence. The violence she was used to always was dealt with magic. It could be done at a distance with a simple utterance and wand flourish without the caster being tainted with proof of the deed. Here... there was a requirement to be in the other person's space, no doubt who cast the hardest hit. "Speaking of your mam... are you sure that I won't be taking up time? I love spending time with her but I don't want to interfere with her bonding time with you. You and I see each other plenty..."

[lizzheartss]

L I Z B E T H A N N

liz aesthetics masterlist

Liz - The pale gaze

Liz, who’s eyes are pale, who’s look is hollow, who’s eyes tell the story of centuries lived for her life to come out already planned, that look, the clan’s look that can seduce man or woman who is with a tiny stare, the white iris that started from their ancestors, they are scary , but beautiful at the same time.

They are cat shaped, like someone spent hours shaping them for being the perfect symmetrical thin shape, (in general she is the type of person that looks like an old doll creator’s best seller product, perfect and beautiful) with double eyelids and slightly closed giving her that relaxed look, her eyelashes are long and soft and have an orange-ish undertone.

every one wants her, Liz is pretty, not a single being has not been dazed by her looks, not a single head doesn’t turn when she passes by, its the eyes, her eyes get boys blushing and girls questioning their sexuality, guys are fooled by her, she looks at them, eye contact starts.

her eyes don’t blink, eyelids blocked, her expression is natural, calm, in contrast with the blushed and aroused expression the other is assuming, her eyes don’t move, the contact goes on and on, its making you feel loved, desired, violated.

she doesn’t care, she’s just looking at someone, but she doesn’t know that her eye contacts are desired, before you could jump on your feet and throw yourself at her, she looks away.

thats not fair. You were honored, envious looks surround you.

Liz - The hazel curls

the most envied part of her, by everyone, those hazel strawberry blonde curls, thick, strong and soft, they are what you would call, ‘the perfect hair’, they don’t get messy in wind, they don’t get oily, they never loose their volume, they always smell good, not even rain can ruin them

they grow quickly, many times her jealous mother tried to cut off those damn locks, they always grew back the same length in less than one week, her mother hated her, but what she hated the most was her perfect hair.

everybody loved them, Liz took good care of her hair even as a child, she always brushed them four times a day with specialized hair brushes, her mother hated them because she knew that there was no way that she could ever get them, her mother’s hair were like everyone else’s, thats not fair! A respectable Marquise should have impeccable hair! And not be humiliated by her own daughter! Why must only her daughter have that hair? Why is she not the one who had princes fighting over a trivial dance?

she was always spotted at balls by princes because they fell in love with those unique ,adorable hazel locks, they surrounded her, stare fighting for who was going to be her first dance, before the prince of Adlers could reclaim his win, Liz’s dad takes her hand for a dance, nobody can touch Liz or her hair, not even the best of the prince charmings.

as a teen she looked like that animated girl from that Herbal Essence Girls 1976’s commercial on TV

Liz - The hated rubin

THE GIRL IN THE PIC LOOKS J U S T LIKE HER.

A woman’s hate

Women hate other women

As much as I would hate being in a lion’s den,

They are vicious and they don’t really care

To ruin another woman’s reputation, or even pull out their hair,

When they pass another woman they will always smile

But, deep inside them all, there is a deceitfulness and also guile,

What else can any man say about that tenacious breed

But, don't be caught in their web, if you are… then get freed.

-Randy L. McClave

are you aware of the beauty curse theory? Let me pull you through it.

Being beautiful is a bless, everyone will love her, she will be embraced with love and warmth, she will have hundreds of opportunities if life, she can have any man or woman you want, anything she wants, everything looks like it was made for her especially.

but it is a curse, all an illusion, she will be killed by envy sin, she will be everyone’s property and they shall do whatever they want with her morals and body because she doesn’t have the right to complain, she is beautiful and automatically everyone’s property, as she drowns in jealousy and anger of envious souls they will make the worst reputation of her,rumors killing you and pointed fingers on everyone else at her. All because she was born with her looks.

[girlwiththegreenhat]

they really did dedicate an episode to having a funeral for tuba huh they really did that they really did that and my tears are everywhere

[prowl-autism-extraordinaire]

i dunno. it feels like cheating, to be happy. to have a steady job and almost be done with a degree and have pets and friends. it feels like even through all the shit ive dealt with, its cheating to have these things. like ive left people behind. and i have left people behind, or it certainly feels that way- but nothing i can do would help anybody else happy. i think so much about liz and micah and kyle and i just- i gave up. gave them up. and i was happier for it. but was that fair to them? i dont know. it doesnt feel like it. ive given up on other people before and it makes me sick to think about it, even if they didn’t want me. i could’ve stayed. but i was so so miserable, staying. i dunno! i dunno. i saw my dad’s other sister today for the first time since i was ten. she didnt know me, unsurprisingly. i didn’t tell her. and i cant stop thinking about heather and the other people in the family ive given up on. is it my job to keep in touch and keep trying? is it my job to forgive over and over? i dont think it is. i dont have the strength or patience or emotional depth for it. and i dont want to. i dont know. im happy and they arent. and i feel responsible even though thats so stupid

[excaliburofficial]

Some headcanons I have about Patty Thompson

My last post about my SE headcanons did pretty well which I wasn’t expecting!!! 

I wanted to talk some more about Patty because I think about her a lot and I love her so much?!? I think there is so much room for depth in her character that just doesn’t get explored in canon so gdi I’ll do it myself I guess lol, a lot of this is gonna be related to her growing up tbh 

TW for mentions of CPTSD and very vague talk about trauma, not graphic at all but just FYI!! :)  

As I said in other posts Patty is an EPIC GAMER™. She built her own gaming PC (w/ Kid’s money lol) and learned some programming also. She gets into making mods and discovering game breaking mechanics/glitches. Her fav games are Dark souls, Bloodbourne and the Resident evil series but she will give most games a try and plays a lot of nintendo casually

Patty is actually pretty smart! There might be a lot of things that she doesnt know but that’s because she didnt get an education and not anything to do with her actual intelligence

Going on from that the reason that Patty struggles with stuff at the academy isn’t because she’s dumb but because she doesnt have that foundational education and also isnt a very strong reader. This is why she had trouble studying and taking the big exam

I think that also part of why she acts silly/dumb is a defense mechanism and trauma response from how she grew up, she def has C-PTSD 

Growing up she also never really thought that she would live that long (liz too) and thats part of why she can be so reckless

Unlike Liz though I dont really think Patty is that aware that her childhood was as traumatic as it was, like on some level she understands but not completely which is at least partly because of denial 

she’s a total metalhead and knows tons of niche metal bands 

I feel like she and Black*star become pretty good like friendly rivals through time. They are prob both  EPIC GAMERS™ but Patty is way better and beats his ass at mario kart. Idk I feel like they have a lot in common and prob have a lot of overlapping tastes

She is acespec

She is obviously in the worm on a string and furby fandoms like come on

She has dyed her hair a really weird color at least once

She is kinda outdoorsy and likes to go camping on occasion. some of her fav camping  activities are hiking, making the campfire, and looking for frogs

She loves going to fairs/carnivals/amusement park/festivals when she can and especially loves the food. She will fill up on all the deep fried food she can and somehow always has room for seconds plus snowcones. She is also pretty good at the carnival games (duh) and the people that run the stalls always think she is cheating

I honestly just really love hcs and i have so many for this cast so i might be posting them a lot 

[sningo-prompts]

PSA VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE FROM LIZ TO EVERYONE HERE:

This blog is 100% open and free for anyone to use anything i post here. My ideas are 100% fair game. You can not and will not upset me if your post follows the same premise as mine. I will only get upset if you just copy paste my stuff (literally) to your blogs. If i have something and you wanna redo it because you dont like how i write them out thats fine!! Even if its minor changes im 100% ok with that.

I would greatly love to be tagging in anything you guys make based on this blog but you DO NOT have to. I just wanna see more content for this au. I do not mind being messaged. You can not bother me with asks. I greatly enjoyed interacting with everyone and anyone. If i have a problem with something you are doing i will dm you, privately i will not call you out.

If you feel i am doing something wrong please feel free to tell me. If you think i should tag something with a trigger warning tag tell me!! Is important that those tags get put on!!!

[earth-to-ezra]

LIZLIZ! <33 eedbfjskf now im spamming u

i forgot to ask, (or, rather, tell u) that bc i am resorting to driving safe (bc i need to make sure i dont get into any trouble esp bc you’ll be in the car), i am going to partake in IRL subway surfers 😎✨ <3333 and no you’re not allowed to join only bc you’re not allowed to get hurt 😌

ALSO! im3 is a great choice i am coming right now, abiding traffic laws bc ily <33 AND IM SO PROUD OF YOU YAY BB! no more scholarship essays <33 and you’re gonna ace that test! and noooo you! you’re the most wonderful pls <33 i am: on a winning streak and i dont plan for it to end 😌😌 and yEsss it was fair and square! i do need sleep but so do you love fjskfkd pLs! AND DINO SQUISH? AND A HEATED BLANKET PLS THAT SOUNDS SO GOOD <33 let’s build a fort :)) and nooo only you deserve the world + everything good in it! not me im just here to spread that love to u duh!

— 🧇🦕🐹 waffles + your dino squish and hamster liz! <33

WAFFLE WAFFLE BBY <33 is okayy :)))

no youre not doing that!! THATS WAY TOO DANGEROUS AND IF YOU DO IT I DO IT!!!

im3 is the fucking best idc what anyone says tony is one of my favs!! and yess come watch :)) AND THANK YOUUU :))) I DID THEM AND THEYRE DONE AND NO MOREE 🤭🤭🤭 but i am NOT going to ace the test 😅😅😅 and no youuuu!!!! youre the most wonderful!! im going to win because its trueeee!!!! and n O it wasnt fair and squareee!!! you DO need sleep!! 🥰🥰 i DO not!! AND YES DINO SQUISH I LOVE IT SO MUCH :))) ITS A VIBE <33 YES FORT 🥰 and NO you deserve the world too and everything good in it!!! and im here to spread the love you deserve!!!

YESSYESYESSS :)))

[notyobabygirl]

hi liz! i recently reached out to my ex after about 2 years. ( we had a messy breakup and i ended up ghosting and deleted all my socials) i felt i was ready and felt really bad with how we left off. she had broke up with me because she said she had no time for me anymore basically and was getting really busy (we also lived together and spent everyday together). i was okay and respected that but she still wanted to keep me around and i just didn’t like that. i ended up ghosting everyone, changing my number and deleted socials to get away bc i couldn’t take it. so fast forward to now we started talking again and at first she would call me and text me all the time. we agreed to meet up and everything was so good at first. i had no intentions on anything happening but she ended up kissing me towards the end of the night and things escalated. we acted like nothing happpened between us and like we hadn’t not spent those years away from each other. we held hands, cuddled, kissed and it felt so right to me like we’re meant to be together. we hung out the next day and same things happened. i feel really confused bc she says she sees us being back together but now she’s super distant, we don’t talk, just here and there and i get not everyone wants to text all day which is totally fine, but she acts like she doesn’t want me. we agreed to just be friends and see how things go but to me she’s just stringing me along and keeping me around just like before! i’m really confused bc i didn’t think i would still feel anything towards her but after the kissing and all that it just all came back. i feel really used but i want her in my life forever and i’m not certain that she feels the same. i also feel uncomfortable talking to other people bc even though we aren’t together, i feel like i wouldn’t want that done to me so why would i do it to her, but i also feel like she’s already doing that. what do you think?? she also told me when she lost me she lost her best friend and that she looks for me in everyone so it’s like maybe she’s telling me all these things just to tell me??

you are taking her feelings into too much consideration and while doing that you are hurting yourself!! ask yourself what you want? if you want to be friends and thats it (no kissing or holding hands or being touchy) then you need to create boundries with her and tell her she cant do that. its not fair to you for her to kiss you one day and then the next leave you hanging. shes talking to you on her own schedule and when its convenient for her. you need to let her know that its not right for her to just pick and choose when she wants to talk to you. feeling used is the worst feeling, you need to stand up for yourself and have an actual convo with what she wants vs what you want